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Tomorrow is a realizing and action of struggle and dreams that my sister and I have had for so long. She was tested and found to be Huntington's Free.........and she was the one we thought was sick with it. It was a miracle, it is one. I have never shown signs, and the Nuerologist who saw me in July said i was symptom free at that point and at this age I would be showing signs. He said my brain scan thinger looked great.

BUT we want to do the test to be 100% sure it is the only way! I know in my heart though, I believe it 100% that God has spared us from this monsterous disease that has claimed my mother and so many in my family. When people doubt that God can do amazing things, that Miracles don't really exist, it breaks my heart for them.

I have seen the darkest of things in life, death, disease, sorrow, pain, and tears. BUT I have also seen joy, kindness, selflessness, and most of all love! I have seen the good and the bad, and I have recovered from the broken mess I was once. But I could not do that without God. I hated him when my mother was diagnosed, because I had begged him to not let her be sick like her father. I demanded to know why he had let someone so kind so sweet so loving be sick. I was so hurt, so angry, and I blamed him and blinded myself to the facts that God does have a reason for everything.

People may ask, why? Why did he hurt her? Why does he let anyone get sick? My mother is kind, she is selfless, she has faults like anyone does. But the reason I have come to learn, is that God knew that thru the illness and the pain, the hardship, he would show us what a true Christian is. She loves him, she doesn't blame him, she loves life, and despite her inabilities, she has moved mountains, with her faith in God. He said all you needed was the faith the size of a tiny mustard seed and mountains would move! I understand that now. Its about believing that no matter what happens, in sickness or health, God has a plan a reason for everything! 

We just need to keep our eyes on him, and love him, and trust him no matter what the world says. This is such a difficult post for me to make. It really is. BUT the truth is what it is and I need to share this story. What people need to understand is that God is real, and that God is merciful, and that he loves you. Most importantly he sent his son to die for you, and Jesus defeated death for us. He took on our sins, he suffered....he died...and he rose three days later. 

I know people probably scoff at me some anyway for my belief, but I really do believe that God has a reason for everything! I tried to pray that Mom would be healed up and I had faith, but sometimes God says no for a reason. I prayed as the years passed, "If you cannot spare my mother, then please let her be the last in this family with Huntingtons Disease." My sister is the first step and such a hopeful one since we thought she was sick. The day she told me that God had spared her and her children, oh it was so amazing so sureal...so wonderful! There was hope again for our future!

I had that hope for myself in July when I talked to the Nuerologist who knew about HD, and he is going to be the one to see me tomorrow. I will get this test, I won't know the results for about a month. BUT I know them already I have faith. I am 33 years old, at this age, my mom sadly began to shake, and fall......and had issues with mental things as well along the way. We ignored it, we tried to deny it. BUT my families eyes are wide open.....and we have learned to not ignore it. We have learned to accept that this disease is there, and that while we hate it with all our being. There is no reason to deny if someone is showing signs. The sooner you find out, the sooner you can start being preventative! 

I am asking your prayers, and if you don't believe then your thoughts for my family at this time, and that this test will say I am Negative for Huntingtons Disease. I love you all, and I hope that my story that God wanted me to share does touch someone. I will tell you this. No matter what anyone says period, God's word, the Bible is true and real, doesn't matter how old it is. It also matters that you have faith, and that you believe in his love. Open your heart....it will be the best thing you ever do.

I love you all.

Michelle 

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Tomorrow is a realizing and action of struggle and dreams that my sister and I have had for so long. She was tested and found to be Huntington's Free.........and she was the one we thought was sick with it. It was a miracle, it is one. I have never shown signs, and the Nuerologist who saw me in July said i was symptom free at that point and at this age I would be showing signs. He said my brain scan thinger looked great.

BUT we want to do the test to be 100% sure it is the only way! I know in my heart though, I believe it 100% that God has spared us from this monsterous disease that has claimed my mother and so many in my family. When people doubt that God can do amazing things, that Miracles don't really exist, it breaks my heart for them.

I have seen the darkest of things in life, death, disease, sorrow, pain, and tears. BUT I have also seen joy, kindness, selflessness, and most of all love! I have seen the good and the bad, and I have recovered from the broken mess I was once. But I could not do that without God. I hated him when my mother was diagnosed, because I had begged him to not let her be sick like her father. I demanded to know why he had let someone so kind so sweet so loving be sick. I was so hurt, so angry, and I blamed him and blinded myself to the facts that God does have a reason for everything.

People may ask, why? Why did he hurt her? Why does he let anyone get sick? My mother is kind, she is selfless, she has faults like anyone does. But the reason I have come to learn, is that God knew that thru the illness and the pain, the hardship, he would show us what a true Christian is. She loves him, she doesn't blame him, she loves life, and despite her inabilities, she has moved mountains, with her faith in God. He said all you needed was the faith the size of a tiny mustard seed and mountains would move! I understand that now. Its about believing that no matter what happens, in sickness or health, God has a plan a reason for everything! 

We just need to keep our eyes on him, and love him, and trust him no matter what the world says. This is such a difficult post for me to make. It really is. BUT the truth is what it is and I need to share this story. What people need to understand is that God is real, and that God is merciful, and that he loves you. Most importantly he sent his son to die for you, and Jesus defeated death for us. He took on our sins, he suffered....he died...and he rose three days later. 

I know people probably scoff at me some anyway for my belief, but I really do believe that God has a reason for everything! I tried to pray that Mom would be healed up and I had faith, but sometimes God says no for a reason. I prayed as the years passed, "If you cannot spare my mother, then please let her be the last in this family with Huntingtons Disease." My sister is the first step and such a hopeful one since we thought she was sick. The day she told me that God had spared her and her children, oh it was so amazing so sureal...so wonderful! There was hope again for our future!

I had that hope for myself in July when I talked to the Nuerologist who knew about HD, and he is going to be the one to see me tomorrow. I will get this test, I won't know the results for about a month. BUT I know them already I have faith. I am 33 years old, at this age, my mom sadly began to shake, and fall......and had issues with mental things as well along the way. We ignored it, we tried to deny it. BUT my families eyes are wide open.....and we have learned to not ignore it. We have learned to accept that this disease is there, and that while we hate it with all our being. There is no reason to deny if someone is showing signs. The sooner you find out, the sooner you can start being preventative! 

I am asking your prayers, and if you don't believe then your thoughts for my family at this time, and that this test will say I am Negative for Huntingtons Disease. I love you all, and I hope that my story that God wanted me to share does touch someone. I will tell you this. No matter what anyone says period, God's word, the Bible is true and real, doesn't matter how old it is. It also matters that you have faith, and that you believe in his love. Open your heart....it will be the best thing you ever do.

I love you all.

Michelle 
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"Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28

This says it all. For years we have lived in fear that the monster called 'Huntingtons Disease" was going to be our life. It took our mother and made her so ill she cannot do anything and has not much time left. Its like having Parkinsons and Alzheimers mixed in and OCD. Well you have a 50/50 chance of getting it higher than most diseases out there.

This disease killed all of the Nichole's family save about 1 or 2 it was really strong in my grandfather's family I think he had like 4 or 5 siblings and of them only 1 was free of the disease. He had 7 children and usually when the father has it there is junior HD, but not one of the 7 got it that way, only 2 of the seven are sick with it. My mom and her sister. The sigsn start around the 30's in my family ending up with the diagnosis around age 45. 

Mom's CAG count was 48.......Erica and I have lived in fear our whole lives that this disease would one day take us! I am age 33, I saw a Nuerologist in July for another issue entirely but he was an expert on the disease and said I was absolutely simptom free! Which if I had it by this time I should be showing...

My sister has anger issues and other such things we worried she was getting it. She tested and came back Negative! She does not have it, and I know I don't have it. I will be getting tested officially to just make it official but I know that God has spared us. I prayed for years that it stopped with mom.......and it has! 

Now my nieces and my own children should I have them one day can live fear free! I am so happy it feels like a dream like its not real but it is! IT IS! Folks this is a miracle!  If you ever felt fear over a family disease being passed on to you then you'll understand.

I cannot wait to be officially tested to beable tos how people 100% what I know and believe now. I have faith that God has stopped this diease from going further into my family. 3 Genreations ago it was going strong...now in the 3rd Generation later....its weakening. :D There is hope! 

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Michelle
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I draw and do digital and traditional pictures, and I am currently working on 2 books. I was for a while against selling my own work because I was concerned that it would cost me my license for creativity. But honestly now I believe that its not going to hurt me to do this. I also need all the extra money I can get to support my terminally ill mother.

I love writing, and drawing, and I even enjoy singing. I have fun in life and I try to help others out as much as I can. I don't need to be 'famous' to be successful or happy. This does not mean I don't have dreams or want to keep drawing and writing and even getting published. But you will find I am not focused on that.

To top it off I am also a Christian! I will be putting up more Bible art so if you love that then look at the gallery!

See you sooN!
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UsagiTenshi Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for the :icondeviantwatchplz: too! :iconpinklilyplz:

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SarahMyriaCarter Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2015  Professional Writer
Hey I am holding a  contest and hope you consider entering it's for book 2(Seekers Temptation)  and also 200 :points:


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Brand-129 Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the favorite, I really apreciated.:) (Smile) Heart I think I've fainted. :happybounce: CURSE YOU! Hug 
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guineawhale Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Saw your music video! Spectacular…I wish I could do that :D
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PhoenixdreamangelMSB Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you very much! I don't get to make many anymore but its hard to do them when I am so busy. I am writing a book! Mirror of the Soul is now up to CHapter 9! Oh I love this and theere are 7 in all for this seris.....anyways to top it off I work full time and take care of my termianlly ill mother...so I want to spend as much time with her as I can.....so Mv's aren't as easy to make these days.

Michelle
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guineawhale Featured By Owner Edited Jan 23, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Oh my goodness!! I will have to look into your book because if you write like you draw I'll be hooked on it for hours! I'm so happy for you, it seems there are so few young writers these days, so I'm always happy to learn of one. But oh...your dear mother will be in my prayers, and if you ever need moral support, feel free to shoot me a note. You're so brave for dealing with so much. Keep fighting, soldier, and never stop wowing the world with that talent!  
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PhoenixdreamangelMSB Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for your prayers for mom! I also am blushing over your compliments and thank you for your kind words. It helps me keep going and keep doing what I'm doing. I don't need to flow the way everyone else is. I want to do things my own way and shine in that way. I really believe you will love Mirror of the Soul, its me as a Princess. In 2009 I drew myself as a Disney princess adn I was plump not skinny...and Aurianfae one of my friends begged me for the story of Michelle and from there it just grew. LOL IT took time, and eventually I found the right path for the book. But since 2009 on and off I"ve worked on pictures and various verisons of this book. BUT what I am putting out now is 100% for sure the book. So yes there are older copies up that you could read if you wanted but they were not persued for many reasons.

Anyways :D I really am glad you are interested in the stories. I am working on Chapter 9. :D almost half way into my book now! :D 
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Rhosgobel-Rabbit Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2015  Student Filmographer
Thanks for the watch Michelle! :D
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PhoenixdreamangelMSB Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
You are welcome I thought I was already watching you weird......LOL! 
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Rhosgobel-Rabbit Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2015  Student Filmographer
Lol I have moments like that too xD
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Life-is-the-bubbles Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I like your new da icon. It's colorful. :)
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Calilasseia Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2015
I gathered you needed a pick me up after your recent woes, so I put this together as a present ...

A Moment Of Quiet Contemplation

I said I'd give you an outing as a pink faerie princess, so here you are! Oh, I fired up a complete new set of wings for you ... you're "flight testing" them as it were!
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PhoenixdreamangelMSB Featured By Owner Jan 16, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you! 
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Ever-everafter Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2015
Thankyou for the favourite!
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J-Cat Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
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H-StallionWolf Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2014  Student Digital Artist
wow, thank you very much for faving
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UniSoLeiL Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch and faveshug 
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UsagiTenshi Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist

:iconelsaplz: Thank you so much for :iconbigfav4plz:ing my art Let It Go by UsagiTenshi !!  :iconelsasmileplz::iconfrozenhugplz:

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PhoenixdreamangelMSB Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2014  Professional Digital Artist
You are mokst welcome!
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